skinnydream-diary:

i don’t even remember the last time i ate something and didn’t think about how fat it would make me.. 

wh0re-ifi3d:

Do you ever just feel so trapped inside your own body?

I’ll take any high just to feel alive like I did with you.

Me- *le scrolling through bathing suits on the internet*

*goes to the plus size section*

*states that my bestfriend has this one*

Boyfriend- “Why would she shop in that section? Shes not even big.”

My Brain-  “HE THINKS YOURE FUCKING DISGUSTING. YOUR BESTFRIEND IS SO MUCH PRETTIER I DONT KNOW WHY HE HASNT LEFT YOU YET YOU DISGUSTING FUCKING PIG.”

MY LIFE

When someone implies that EDs aren’t real/serious

edrecoveryprobs:

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Recovery:

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If you had an eating disorder maybe you would understand how my thought process went. Yes, I KNOW I sound crazy but this disorder outweighs my logic. I KNOW you have to eat and that its a natural body function but that doesnt stop my brain from making me feel disgusting afterward.

I have trouble deciphering whats logical and whats not. I think to myself “You lost your friends becuase your fat and ugly and no one wants to be seen with someone like you.” And then my sane side thinks “Thats a terrible excuse for friends to leave your side.” and then you realize that theyre now friends with people much prettier than you. Bring on the sadness.